A sad 'doctor who' lover

Wearing a very sad smile and bearing a very heavy heart, I turn off my xbox (with Netflix) with just three episodes of 'doctor who' left. I'm just not ready to watch the man I've fallen totally in love with die. I know you all believe he isn't real but somewhere in the back of my mind and the corners of my heart I still believe, maybe, just maybe he's real. Ha.. I guess I'm like river.. In love with a man destined to die, just not at my own hand. Maybe one day I'll be able to meet him, the doctor, the most amazing, funny, sweet, kind, god complex having doctor.. Perhaps, he could save me one day... How? I'm not quite sure. But I believe in him. And doesn't believing in something, willing for something to happen, end up eventually making it happen..? I will be Sabrina kent, the Other girl who waited. And I will wait for my lovely doctor for the rest of my life here on this earth. Why, you may ask? Because I have fallen totally and completely in love with him. And he is the only man, besides my boyfriend, that I will ever truly love. But until then, I will love my beautiful boyfriend zach, who got me into this in the first place, and who I love just as much as the doctor. I wonder if the doctor would be mad if we domesticated the TARDIS hahaha! Just a madman with a box. A beautiful blue box that happens to be my favorite color, and is bigger on the inside. That's all for now readers.. Safe traveling fellow time lords.